The Secret World Of Santa Claus

Wow... how this brings me back into my childhood. The Secret World of Santa Claus is an animated TV show (my favorite to be exact) which I've been watching every year starting in December when I was younger. It's been re-runs for the last, probably at least ten years, but I can never get tired of those. I've never seen it air here in the USA, but I finally found it in English and even found out that you can order them on DVD. Man, I really need some kids, so stuff like this doesn't sound too childish and I actually have a reason to get excited about it. Oh well... anyway, here's a small preview from it and I really do recommend this to everyone who has children or - and that would be my case - just absolutely loves Christmas!

Undying Devotion

Before you came into my life, I had given up on ever finding my soul mate; the one person who could set my heart on fire with just one look. I thought that was the stuff of silly, dime store romance novels. At first you were just another face in the crowd - just another somebody passing aimlessly by, until that fateful day when my eyes laid upon your beautiful face. It was like a ray of sunshine peaking through a cloudy sky. It doesn't take a genius to work out how much I love you, but it takes a very clever person to work out why. You are the gentle breeze in my world of chaos, the calming presence that tells all to be still. When I'm down you lift me up, when I'm tired you spur me on. When I sleep I snuggle in the warmth of your embrace and feel safe. You are my security blanket from the everyday rigors of life. I cherish the day we met, and the love we share. I love you more with each passing day. And it eases me to know that as tomorrow approaches, that I will love you more than yesterday and tomorrow will be more than today. My love for you cannot be measured by words alone as "love" does not fully express my feelings for you. When I think of our love it reminds me of the miracles of life that only something higher can produce. Like the beautiful sunsets and sounds of Mother Nature that sooth our hearts and remind us of something bigger than we can imagine, where two hearts can intertwine and become one. Like two birds in love that fly in harmony and appear to dance with grace and the innocence of a child. You and only you have given me so much hope and have made me realize the true meaning in life. The true meaning of how a man should treat a woman and the true wonders of why we're here. Baby, please accept my heart as your own and listen to the rhythm of two hearts beating as one. This is my will and my reason to live, for without you I would crumble to dust. I now know that dreams of that one true soul mate are truly real and until now were only a fairy tale. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to realize that not only is there a higher being, but it works in so many ways.

Friendship

Something so unique. A bond far stronger than we could imagine for it can bear any pain, face any hurdle and still remain as strong as the first day it was built between two people. True friendship is rare to find, but those tho find it are the luckiest of all. Friends know how to make a bad day seem perfectly good.They know how to forgive when one fails to see the truth. They know how to give, know how to care and how to be there when you need them. Friendship is something which makes everything seem much easier, because if you have one near you, you wouldn't mind swimming through the void. Because you know wherever it may carry you, you have someone you can rely on and trust. Life is a hard battle but having a true friend near you makes the journey seem much easier, knowing someone is there with whom you can share your darkest secrets, your stupid dreams and your fears and hopes. Someone who will scold you and show you what's right. Someone who wouldn't budge from your side when a storm hits. Life is sometimes boring, so you need a friend to spice things up, and having a true friend beside you will help you find the missing ingredients in your life.

Ready Or Not - The Christmas Season Is Almost Upon Us

The time is almost here again, where everything is possible and everyone is filled with that Christmas spirit. Well I don't know about you all out there, but I certainly can feel it already. I went shopping for some outdoor Christmas decorations in the beginning of November and it couldn't have been too early for me. Christmas movies are already recording on our DVR and cinnamon candles have been lit also. Perhaps we'll be able to get a train for around the tree. I've always wanted one, but never actually gotten one. Also, having a collection of all those Christmas houses you can buy at the stores and build your own little town is something I hope to have in the future. I'd even build something just for Christmas to put it on. I also hope that we somehow can manage to go up north to Frankenmuth, the Christmas town of Michigan. I know it's about 2 hours away, but since it's the last Christmas we're going to spend in Michigan, I hope it'll happen. I sure would love to visit Bronner's - The World's Largest Christmas Store (www.bronners.com)

The huge tree in front of our house is almost naked and our front and backyard has been covered with leaves. Oh how I love this time of year - The days our longer, the temperatures are colder and we're even expecting the first snow of the season this week. As soon as Thanksgiving's passed, we'll be decorating the inside and outside of the house and of course we're going to buy a Christmas tree. I know it's not hard to see how excited I am about the upcoming season, but that's just me - always has been, always will be.

I'm actually quite a bit sad that we won't be having a Thanksgiving dinner over at my mom in law's house. She's been hospitalized again, about the 5th time in four months, and she's currently in a nursing home. Going to the hospital so many times for the exact same thing and they don't take care of it just doesn't make sense to me. I guess I'd have to be a doctor to understand, but it bothers me. It's not only stressful for her, but for us too. I hope she's feeling better soon and that she can finally put all that stuff behind her. Anyway, even though Thanksgiving is quite a busy holiday over at the Lester home, I enjoy it. So this year we'll be having our own little Thanksgiving dinner, which I'm looking forward to as well.

I have so many things in my life to be thankful for and lots of people don't even know that. Just the other week I finally sent my dad a package with a letter. I took the time to tell him how much I love him and how much I appreciate everything he does. I can always count on him and know that he'd help me if I needed his help. I wanted to tell him all that, because you never know how much time you have left with a person you love. It could all change in a second and I wanted him to know how I feel.

Every day I wake up, seeing my wife and realizing how thankful I am to have found her, to have the chance to love her and spend my life with her. I couldn't have wished for a better woman by my side and even though I make sure to tell her that I love her all the time, I don't think she actually knows how thankful I really am. But how could I ever let her know anyway? In all that time I've been with her, I haven't gotten close to explaining what I feel for her. Believe me, I've searched for ways that would truly let her know, but there's no way my feelings for her could be explained. At least not as of 2010. Maybe one day in the future, when technology's even better than now, I'll be able to explain.

I'm also thankful a lot for my sister in law. She's done so much for me since I know her and she's been a wonderful friend to me. Being there for one another is just as important to her as it is to me. I wish for her that she'd be taking things slow and calm down. Running around all the time just isn't healthy and if she continues doing that, it'll break her. But what am I saying anyway, we'll be moving back to Arizona next year, and everything will change then.

I'm thankful for everyone who's in my life and everyone who's been in my life. Many people have touched my life, but once a friendship is over there usually isn't a way back, because people have been hurt. I've had a lot of different friends in my life but no matter how much they meant to me, they vanished anyway. I've always said that I choose quality over quantity, but I've come to realize that I can't depend on that either. The people I really need and know will never leave me are by my side, and that's all I need!

How much I love you, you'll never know

The snow falls gently on a winter's night
But inside by the fire I hold you tight
As the burning flames start to dance
My thoughts of you turn to romance
In the light of the evening fire's glow
How much I love you, you'll never know

Though it's cold outside, it's warm in here
And the one I love I'm holding near
Snow may fall but I don't mind the weather
As long as you and I can be together
The night is young and we've nowhere to go
How much I love you, you'll never know

We don't care about the winter storm
Nestled with you, it's cozy and warm
The storm may rage and the snow come down
But as long as I've you to wrap my arms around
The snow can fall and the four winds blow
How much I love you, you'll never know

Later on we'll retire to our room
Hoping to relieve our winter gloom
Replacing the cold with our own little fire
Of being with you I can never tire
But as much as I set your passions aglow
How much I love you, you'll never know

I'm Proud It's You

Looking back on the time we shared
Nothing else in my life has compared
Joined together hand in hand
Part of some much larger plan
You have brought to my world such sheer delight
Making my time on earth so sunny and bright
I am so thankful for the time we spend
Time together I know will never end
From the first time I saw your face
I knew you were my saving grace
Like a drowning man who’s been thrown a rope
You’ve provided me such unending hope
Casting my loneliness to the side
Never once breaking your stride
Like a gift from Heaven above
I’m so thankful for your love
A true love that will never fade
I’m thankful for the love we made
All the times we held each other tight
Making love with all our might
A special dance between the covers
That could only be done by true lovers
Thankful I have you to hug and hold
Thankful for the passion you let unfold
I'm sure this time with you will never end
For it is time spent with my best friend
So thankful for the joy you bring
Symbolized by a wedding ring
I know the best is yet to come
Though we are two, we think as one
For no matter what the future may bring
I am proud it is you who wears my ring

4th Anniversary Letter

My Dearest Kelly

I am taking a moment to think of you, which follows all the moments I think of you, which fill my day.

And in this moment, I am thinking of your lips, your eyes, your features and your figure; your warmth as I hold you; the smell of your hair as we kiss -- all the things that excite me when I look at you and am near you. I am thinking of them, and reflecting how little they mean when I also think of you -- the inner you. The soul I have come to know and cherish, for your kindness with people, your gently manners, and the way you strive to be a better person every day. This is what I love. The you that I know lasts forever, and that I intend to be with forever.

There is so much I would like to say to you, to tell you what you mean to me... but the words don't ever come. You have the most amazing way of showing me how much you care; you share things with me that I couldn't share with anyone else. And through everything we have gone through, all I have to do is lean on you and know my heart and soul are safe. There have been a few speed bumps in our road, but we always stay hand in hand, heart to heart and soul to soul.

I never knew love until you; I can't imagine life without you. You are my everything and I am so blessed with your love and devotion. I love you, Baby, more than I can ever tell you. There are no words for the love I have. It is yours, always and forever, for eternity and beyond.

The first time I heard you say the words, "I love you", it was like a load had been taken off my shoulders. I heard them but was scared but knew that I wanted to hear them again and again for the rest of my life from you.

You have opened up new and exciting doors for us that I can't wait to explore with you. When I feel your touch, my heart melts and my soul is set on fire with desire to hold you and kiss you. You have become my very best friend and my lover. This is love.

I love you with all my heart and soul, now and forever. Thank you for being you and wanting me.

Things Are Looking Good

They patio is finally finished and the garden is blooming. Having a backyard sure is an absolutely great thing. We've been working hard and getting all that done and I'm looking forward until it's all finished and we can sit out there and enjoy every thing. Just today I put the BBQ grill on the patio, the table and the chairs and it looks great. I wish we'd have some actual patio furniture, but what we have will do for now.

The temperatures are great too, especially considering that it's not even summer yet. It's gonna be a hell of a summer, and we sure need to have an umbrella ready or we'll be grilled by the sun. Especially looking forward to the evenings we're gonna spend out there around the bonfire. We're just have to have some bug spray, because those mosquitoes are eating me alive. It is finally something we're doing for just us and it feels great.

Kelly is now officially 9 days smoke free, and I love it. She's in a better mood lately, but I still have to be strong. I know she can do it and I'm very proud of her, I just can't mention it or I get yelled at... LOL.

So things are looking much better than in the beginning of the year, and even though I'd never thought I'd say that back in the beginning of 2010, but it is going to be a great year.

More Beautiful Every Day

They say that time is the great thief
Robber of beauty and of looks
I have heard it spoken times before
Have read of it in books

But as the years go by with you
I realize more and more
You just get that much better
So much better than before

For what may have caught my eye
Was surely your pretty face
But over the years I have come to know
Your true beauty and inner grace

For your true beauty is not seen
Not what you choose to show
It is your beauty that lies inside
The beauty I’ve come to know

And as the years pass on by
You age just like fine wine
And every year that passes by
Makes me glad you’re mine

Far from your beauty ever fading
I feel that I must say
You just keep on getting better
And more beautiful every day

Of This You Can Be Sure

The summer sun rises over the hills
With a beauty and certain grace
But it cannot compete with the beauty of you
Or the beauty of your face

The falling snow in wintertime
Makes everything look so new
But it cannot compare with the beauty
The beauty that is you

The birds in springtime sing their song
So sweetly and so pure
But they cannot compare with your sweet words
Of this you can be sure

The colorful leaves on autumn trees
All covered with morning dew
May be glorious in their beauty
But are nothing compared to you

All the wonders on this fine earth
And the glory of up above
Are nothing compared to your sweet charms
Or the beauty of your love

I'm Proud It's You

Looking back on the time we shared
Nothing else in my life has compared
Joined together hand in hand
Part of some much larger plan
You have brought to my world such sheer delight
Making my time on earth so sunny and bright
I am so thankful for the time we spend
Time together I know will never end
From the first time I saw your face
I knew you were my saving grace
Like a drowning man who’s been thrown a rope
You’ve provided me such unending hope
Casting my loneliness to the side
Never once breaking your stride
Like a gift from Heaven above
I’m so thankful for your love
A true love that will never fade
I’m thankful for the love we made
All the times we held each other tight
Making love with all our might
A special dance between the covers
That could only be done by true lovers
Thankful I have you to hug and hold
Thankful for the passion you let unfold
I'm sure this time with you will never end
For it is time spent with my best friend
So thankful for the joy you bring
Symbolized by a wedding ring
I know the best is yet to come
Though we are two, we think as one
For no matter what the future may bring
I am proud it is you who wears my ring

For That Special Someone

She is who pumps deep through my veins
My mouth utters passionately for her name
Referred to as my wife, but she is much more
She is what I breath and what I live for
She touches me in ways I cannot feel
Encloses me whole, with her lips as a seal
Our love is wrapped by an imaginary band
Bonded together through each of our hands
Heaven sent me an angel who recites her hymn
Love overcame lust and I overcame sin
Taking me to new levels; I'm swept off my feet
Her love… the one and only thing my heart beats
True love never ends, nor does it die
This is going to be the new Bonnie & Clyde
There is no question, I drop the 'why'
She is the one, my wife till I die

I Love You, Goodbye!

I was trying to keep my head held high
But all that's left is to say goodbye
My heart is broke, my soul is hollow
There's nothing left for me to follow
Day by day you fight through the pain
Because of something stuck in your brain
How did this happen? What went wrong?
Heaven is just not where you belong
I don't know what to do without you
Or how I'm going to make it through
You will be gone and I will be here
Just thinking about it fills me with fear
You are so young, you deserve to live
But there's nothing more that you can give
Nobody knows how long it's gonna take
For you are weak and might soon break
I think about this every brand new day
And I wish there was a way for you to stay
But with a heavy heart and a tear in my eye
I'm letting you go, I love you, goodbye

A Thought of You

My kind of music
My favorite song
I want to be with you
All day and all night long

A spring breeze
A summer sun
Now that I know you
You are my one

A winter sparkle
An autumn tree
Added all up
It equals you and me

My best friend
My only lover
From here on out
I'll keep you forever

A good laugh
With some happy tears
You're the one I go to
Through all the coming years

When it rains it rains
When it snows it snows
I wrote this specially for you
and you're the only one who knows

You keep me warm
When I'm so cold
As if my heart were for sale
To you it was sold

Whether playing our favorite game
Or to music we sing and listen
When it comes to you
There's just no competition

Not the best cut diamonds
Or the reddest rose
Could ever amount to
When you hold me close

And when everything is said and done
The night is over and we've had our fun
Out of all the women I choose just one
The best one of all and that's you Hun

Forever Love

Your friendship and love,
And all the wonderful things
That they bring into my life,
Are like nothing else
I have ever known.

My heart is complete
With the love we share,
And our love grows more
Beautiful each day.

I love you,
And as long as we are together,
I have everything I need.

You are with me always...
In a smile, a memory, a feeling
Or a moment we share.

You will always be
My Forever Love

Feel, Listen & Believe

Lie in my arms
Feel how I hold you tight
In my arms you can be forever
In my arms you can feel secure

Look into my eyes
In my eyes you can read forever
And in my heart
That you'll always be the only one for me

Feel my touches
Feel how your hairs on your neck stand up
I will touch you forever
Cause you're the best that ever happens to me

Hear my voice
How I talk to you
Let me make you happy with saying:
I love you

A Proud Moment

Four days ago, my wife handed me her pack of cigarettes and told me to put it in the refrigerator. I looked at her, not understanding anything, so she told me that cigarettes stay fresher in the refrigerator and that she's less likely to grab for a cigarette when they're not next to her. I know that it takes a lot to quit smoking, that it's hard but definitely possible if you really want it. She told me before that she's not ready to quit, and I answered her that there's no point in trying then, because you can only do it when your mind is set to it.

I knew the moment she handed me those cigarettes that she was serious. Serious with quitting smoking, or at least cutting it down for right now. There's been times she smoked a lot, hell that includes me too, times when we smoked about one and a half packs a day each and sometimes even more. 30+ cigarettes a day was the usual and the day she started to cut down she only had 11 cigarettes. 11!! Ain't that great? When I look at her I can see that it's not easy for her, but after 6 months of quitting I am ready to support her. I feel strong enough to help her reach her goal. She's doing a great job and I can't even express how proud I am.

She's doing it all on her own, and she's even cut down on the coffee. Instead of 12+ cups a day she's having 2 cups. Cigarettes and coffee definitely is her biggest addiction - besides me that is =] ! No seriously, that was what her breakfasts used to involve - cigarettes and coffee. Cutting down on two addictions is a really big step.

So baby, if you read this, I just want to let you know how very proud I am of you! You're holding up so great and I am here whenever you need some help. Let me be your rock you can lean on whenever you need a break or whenever you doubt yourself. Let me be your punching bag whenever you feel down. I am here for you and I know you can succeed. I know what you're fighting for and I could not be happier.

I love you and always will - Forever & Ever, Babe!!

Light of Friendship

I've seen the light
And it's in you
In everything you are
And in everything you do

It's a perfect light
That shines for all to see
It radiates from you
And has pierced the heart of me

The light is from a friend
It's a light that keeps me warm
It lets me know how loved I am
And keeps me safe from harm

To you my friend I am thankful
In each and every way
For you lift my spirits up
With every passing day

To know that you are there for me
It makes me feel alive
Because it is your friendship's light
Upon which my love thrives

"Thank you" isn't good enough
But they're the only words I know
It is your light of friendship
That gives my world it's glow

2010 - The Year of Changes

Like every new year, you decide on a resolution and within a month, or perhaps even a couple of weeks, the resolution is broken. We all know it, we've all done it - once, twice or even more times.

I've done it too, many many times before. Most of the time I've set my resolutions on losing weight and quitting smoking, but so far I've never succeeded. I went on a diet for maybe 4 weeks and then I got tired of it and just went back to the regular way. Thinking about it now I sure could kick myself in the ass, if only I could reach. But anyhow, last August I decided on quitting smoking. Yes, I've done it many times before, the longest was 1 year without a cigarette, but I kept returning to those smoking lung sticks. So on 08/15/09 I decided to quit for good. Not only for me, but for Kelly as well. I want that my little sperms swim in super speed and make sure they get a place in the egg. I want to be able to run around with our kids without breathing like crazy and I don't want the kids to grow up surrounded by cigarettes. My parents both smoked when I was young and studies show that children are more likely to smoke if their parents do. Now I don't want to blame my parents for me smoking, but I'm just saying. Those are the reasons why I quit and I know I'll never smoke a cigarette again. I want to be ready to support my wife when she decides on quitting and I hope she is proud of me and sees that it is possible, you just have to want it!

So that's what happened in the middle of last year. But last year is past. What matters is what's happening now, here and now in the present. And on January 3rd, a healthier lifestyle has begun. We've decided on eating healthy, exercising and keeping an eye on our weight and so far it's going great. I've lost a total of 9.4 pounds and it feels great. Who would have thought that switching to whole wheat bread, whole wheat pasta, red potatoes, light stuff and organic fruits and vegetables would still be enjoyable. Well let me tell you: It is delicious, not to mention good for you. I try to exercise at least 1 hour per day with 2 break days a week. It's not always easy but Kelly sure pushes me through. I think she really enjoys working me that hard and hearing me screaming, but after the hour is over it feels great. 'Failure is NOT an option' is our motto and if I can barely push the dumbbells up some more, I just repeat that saying in my head. My goal for this year is to lose at least 100 pounds. Big goal huh? Yeah I know, but I can do it. Why you ask? Because I WANT it. I know I said it before, but it's different now. It's totally different. I had to switch the switch in my head first to be able to let my body go through all that hard work and I finally succeeded to switch it in my head.

I noticed that whatever you want to do, no matter how hard it might be, is possible as long as your head is set to it... because...

...'FAILURE IS NOT AN OPTION'

Friendship

Friendship is a bond between 2 or more people whom you are close with. A friendship is easy to lose but hard to gain. This is because arguments and fights occur easily between pals. However, friendships are difficult to fix back, or form, due to misunderstandings and the difference of likes and dislikes. Some people treasure friendships a lot, while others take these bonds for granted. A friendship should be valued wisely as such matters do help in the future. When you have a problem occurring, you can always find your friends, or vice versa. These precious bonds are like treasures, difficult to find, but easy to lose.

Although numerous people define friendship in different ways, i define it as loyalty, trust and acceptance between people. In order to form a friendship with someone, a person must be loyal to them and the favor will be returned. This means that no matter what, a friend is always there for them, even in the darkest of times. A friend is willing to give them advice when they're faced with a predicament, and they should be always willing to do the same. When they have a bad day, a good friend is there to cheer them up and make them smile again. Secondly, a good friend must be trustworthy. When someone tells another person a secret, they are trying to prove how trustworthy their friends are. But when someone breaks this trust, the friendship is typically broken or badly damaged. Thirdly, in order to be friends, a person must be able to accept others for who they are. They need to be accepting of who the person is on the inside instead of just the outside. A good friend is also never afraid to do something brainless with their friends when they're just looking for a good time. In conclusion, numerous people define friendship in different ways, however I define it as loyalty, trust and acceptance of others.

Real friends are people you can tell everything to. Whether it's something good or bad, friends are there to comfort you and support you in your decisions. It's not always easy to please a friend, but all you need to do is to talk to them.

I don't have many friends, but that is absolutely fine with me. Quantity over quality is my motto for friends and that explains the choice of people I let close to me.