Light of Friendship

I've seen the light
And it's in you
In everything you are
And in everything you do

It's a perfect light
That shines for all to see
It radiates from you
And has pierced the heart of me

The light is from a friend
It's a light that keeps me warm
It lets me know how loved I am
And keeps me safe from harm

To you my friend I am thankful
In each and every way
For you lift my spirits up
With every passing day

To know that you are there for me
It makes me feel alive
Because it is your friendship's light
Upon which my love thrives

"Thank you" isn't good enough
But they're the only words I know
It is your light of friendship
That gives my world it's glow

2010 - The Year of Changes

Like every new year, you decide on a resolution and within a month, or perhaps even a couple of weeks, the resolution is broken. We all know it, we've all done it - once, twice or even more times.

I've done it too, many many times before. Most of the time I've set my resolutions on losing weight and quitting smoking, but so far I've never succeeded. I went on a diet for maybe 4 weeks and then I got tired of it and just went back to the regular way. Thinking about it now I sure could kick myself in the ass, if only I could reach. But anyhow, last August I decided on quitting smoking. Yes, I've done it many times before, the longest was 1 year without a cigarette, but I kept returning to those smoking lung sticks. So on 08/15/09 I decided to quit for good. Not only for me, but for Kelly as well. I want that my little sperms swim in super speed and make sure they get a place in the egg. I want to be able to run around with our kids without breathing like crazy and I don't want the kids to grow up surrounded by cigarettes. My parents both smoked when I was young and studies show that children are more likely to smoke if their parents do. Now I don't want to blame my parents for me smoking, but I'm just saying. Those are the reasons why I quit and I know I'll never smoke a cigarette again. I want to be ready to support my wife when she decides on quitting and I hope she is proud of me and sees that it is possible, you just have to want it!

So that's what happened in the middle of last year. But last year is past. What matters is what's happening now, here and now in the present. And on January 3rd, a healthier lifestyle has begun. We've decided on eating healthy, exercising and keeping an eye on our weight and so far it's going great. I've lost a total of 9.4 pounds and it feels great. Who would have thought that switching to whole wheat bread, whole wheat pasta, red potatoes, light stuff and organic fruits and vegetables would still be enjoyable. Well let me tell you: It is delicious, not to mention good for you. I try to exercise at least 1 hour per day with 2 break days a week. It's not always easy but Kelly sure pushes me through. I think she really enjoys working me that hard and hearing me screaming, but after the hour is over it feels great. 'Failure is NOT an option' is our motto and if I can barely push the dumbbells up some more, I just repeat that saying in my head. My goal for this year is to lose at least 100 pounds. Big goal huh? Yeah I know, but I can do it. Why you ask? Because I WANT it. I know I said it before, but it's different now. It's totally different. I had to switch the switch in my head first to be able to let my body go through all that hard work and I finally succeeded to switch it in my head.

I noticed that whatever you want to do, no matter how hard it might be, is possible as long as your head is set to it... because...

...'FAILURE IS NOT AN OPTION'

Friendship

Friendship is a bond between 2 or more people whom you are close with. A friendship is easy to lose but hard to gain. This is because arguments and fights occur easily between pals. However, friendships are difficult to fix back, or form, due to misunderstandings and the difference of likes and dislikes. Some people treasure friendships a lot, while others take these bonds for granted. A friendship should be valued wisely as such matters do help in the future. When you have a problem occurring, you can always find your friends, or vice versa. These precious bonds are like treasures, difficult to find, but easy to lose.

Although numerous people define friendship in different ways, i define it as loyalty, trust and acceptance between people. In order to form a friendship with someone, a person must be loyal to them and the favor will be returned. This means that no matter what, a friend is always there for them, even in the darkest of times. A friend is willing to give them advice when they're faced with a predicament, and they should be always willing to do the same. When they have a bad day, a good friend is there to cheer them up and make them smile again. Secondly, a good friend must be trustworthy. When someone tells another person a secret, they are trying to prove how trustworthy their friends are. But when someone breaks this trust, the friendship is typically broken or badly damaged. Thirdly, in order to be friends, a person must be able to accept others for who they are. They need to be accepting of who the person is on the inside instead of just the outside. A good friend is also never afraid to do something brainless with their friends when they're just looking for a good time. In conclusion, numerous people define friendship in different ways, however I define it as loyalty, trust and acceptance of others.

Real friends are people you can tell everything to. Whether it's something good or bad, friends are there to comfort you and support you in your decisions. It's not always easy to please a friend, but all you need to do is to talk to them.

I don't have many friends, but that is absolutely fine with me. Quantity over quality is my motto for friends and that explains the choice of people I let close to me.

Sometimes

Sometimes we see things that aren’t meant to be seen
Sometimes things aren’t always as they seem
Sometimes we need someone to call our own
Especially when we’re alone
Sometimes people just can’t understand
Why things get out of hand
Sometimes life just isn’t fair
Especially when people just don’t care
And sometimes it's hard to say
Why things have to be this way
Sometimes it’s all you can do to get by
Especially when dreams continue to die
Sometimes it’s nice to sit in the rain
Even to just relieve the pain
And when we’ve had a really bad day,
Sometimes we just need to get away
We never know what’s wrong with out pain
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
And sometimes when people get hurt
Even the strongest ones may need comfort

Saying I do

Saying I do
Is more than saying I love you
It goes beyond describing how my love is true
Because words are not enough to express my love for you.

Saying I do
Is like saying I am here for you
That I am ready to see what the future may bring
Because we are together in everything.

Saying I do
Is saying I am now complete because of you
That the pieces of the puzzle called "my life"
Becomes a beautiful picture called "our love".

And now I am saying "I DO"
As I walk down the aisle with you
This is a lifetime promise that I will hold
A promise I make until we grow old

Let me be

Let me be the smile that crosses your lips in a silent empty room
Let me lay in close beside you under a silver wishing moon
Let me stay in your mind and dance with you where no one else can see
Let me be your wish for tomorrow, that you and I are we
Let me sooth away your anger, let me kiss away your tears
Let me chase away your demons, let me love away your fears
I have seen your true sorrows, I have felt your true fears
I have seen your anger and still kissed away your tears
My love for you is eternal and each day I love you more
I am yours and wish for you, all you wish for me, and more
Your eyes find life in me, therefore I live
Your heart deems me worthy, therefore I give
You feel my sincerity, therefore I am what I seem
Your mind dreams, dreams for me, therefore I dream
Your silent will beckons me, therefore I am calm
Your heart truly loves me, therefore I am.

Because of you

You took away my tears
You took away my pain
Without you in my life
I have nothing to gain

You have stayed with me
Through everything, Kelly Lynn
For that I give you my heart
And all my love within

I go crazy when I can't see you
How much I yearn for your touch
The moment that you leave me
I just miss you so much

I don't deserve all of this
I thought it all the way through
But now my life is so wonderful
And it's all because of you

Night of Love

When you're lying your arms around me with tenderness
Naked skin turning around and moving
We fall onto silk pillows
I don't want miss one second of your embrace

We feel our bodies, deep sensually
Will awake a need which slept in myself
Want to smell your love with every saps
Overcast hot skin wild with kisses

Our shadows move back and forth in the mirror
Full of expectation we want more
Our heart lose in the lurch of desire
Bright of thousand of flickering candles

I want you with lock, stock, and barrel, want all of you
I cover up myself with tenderness that I don't freeze
Pull you to me, enfold you with the rapture of the night
Do what you want with me which you conceived in your dreams

Hot ablaze flames rise in the darkness
Our bodies entangled and dancing in the round dance
Which overturning our voices in pure passion
And abode the most beautiful hours silently

I'm deep in you, your sweet body quakes in ecstasy
We seek for the most beautiful passion
Hold me tight, your hands buried in my hair
Let us experience on the bottomless variety of love

We succumb without orientation in our passion
Stroking each other, caressing, fly to the heaven
A shower let us shaken in cozy warmth
Dropping, resulting in the feeling you hold me tight

Lets fall back into the soft silk pillows
A kiss from you and I don't want to know what you're thinking about
I tell you, that I don't want to miss you
Dreaming in the sleep we await the day

You (A poem about you)

A hand to hold through old age
A person to laugh with even though
The joke wasn't that funny
A smile shared during everyday life
Because you are there with me
A beauty that catches my eye
Every time you walk in the room
A warm feeling in my heart
Because you show me that you care
A tingling in my bones
Because you touched me
A trance like state
You put me in with a waft of you
A calm moment from the storm inside
Because your voice graced my ears with "I love you"
A naked feeling down to my soul
Because you looked at me
A reason to get up every morning
And to dream every night
These are but some of the things that are you
And for that I am happy you are in my life

3rd Anniversary Letter

Have you ever caught yourself wanting to be someone else? Maybe someone who has enough money so you wouldn't have to worry about paying your bills? Or maybe even someone who you thought looked better than you do? Well, I myself have had those wishes. I wanted to be someone else just to escape from what I had, or what I didn't have.

I often asked myself, what if I was a different person would my life be any better? Or what if I would have more money or a better job, would I be happier? In that moment I thought the answer was 'yes'. If I had more money and could pay bills on time I wouldn't have to worry about late fees, or even that they shut it down. I wouldn't have to turn around every penny while going grocery shopping. But then after that moment I came back to reality. I came back to what I actually had and just took it the way it was.

All this changed when I met you, my princess. I still caught myself thinking things like; What if I was a different person and would have met you in America? What if I'd have enough money to buy you everything you wanted? What if...? All this stopped after a while, though, cause I came back to the same answer every time; If I was a different person I wouldn't have you. I wouldn't have what we share, and I probably would have never met you. Now and then I still wish that I'd have a lot of money, so I could buy you everything you want. Not being able to buy you something, whether it's a new car or just some milk still makes me very said. After a while, though, I never found myself wishing I was somebody else anymore.

You changed my whole life, baby. I knew the moment you entered the chat room on foolmoon that you were someone special. You cast a spell over me,starting with your nickname, and when you started talking I thought that you were the cutest person ever.

You just have it all! You are very sexy, not just in a physical way but also mental. I love the fact that you are intelligent, which is another reason I got drawn to you. You are beautiful, inside and outside and you fight for what you stand for. You have your own opinions and you tell them, no matter what. You have your dreams, and you don't even know how proud I am of you. I adore you with every single beat of my heart and I'm going to support you in everything you want to do.

We've been together for three years now and we both know it wasn't always easy. We've had up and downs in our relationship but our love was strong enough to put us through all that. I've never felt so confident in my life as I feel about our love and I can't wait for all the other things life has waiting for us. I am so sure about our love, you and our marriage that I know we will make it through anything.

From the bottom of my heart, with every fabric of my being and with more love than I've ever had for somebody do I promise you to always be here for you, to support you in everything that may come and to listen to what you have to say. Whether you just want to have a hug or you need my shoulder to cry on, I will be here. If you need a hand to lead your way, I will be here to do so. If you feel insecure, I'm the one to give you safety and if you just want to talk, I'm here to listen.

I love you, Kelly Lynn. I love you the way nobody could ever love you. I love you forever and ever, no matter what and I will work my whole life long on making you as happy as you make me.

A Piece Of Art

Word after word
Good grammar preferred
While writing each line
The thoughts combine
Each letter transferred

The story goes on
The picture gets drawn
Characters created
All the points stated
The mistakes foregone

Movements so smart
Words from your heart
Your mind is flowing
And your face glowing
Writing; A piece of art

The Colder, Darker&Longer Days Of The Year!

Only 51 more days until Christmas, and it seems that I'm very excited about the upcoming season this year. I always got excited when Christmas - or better say - December was around the corner, but this year I just can't wait. It might have to do with the new house. We now live in a very friendly neighborhood which was decorated around Halloween as well. I'm pretty sure it'll look even more nice around Christmas. I really want to decorate our house too. I mean I know we're gonna do that in the inside, but hopefully outside as well. I'm not really excited about getting gifts. Having a big Christmas tree, decorated nicely and a lot of gifts under it, not for me but from me, would make a great Holiday. And of course the matchable music to it just makes it perfect. Entering the house, smelling homemade cookies or just cinnamon candles is a part of the Christmas Season too. I would also like to go to a Christmas market. Smelling whatever is in the air, cookies, snow or just Christmas itself. Something you just have to experience.

I can't wait for the snow to come, also when we are in the 70's again today, I hope it'll come soon. Waking up in the morning, looking out the window, seeing how snowflakes dance their way down to the ground. Building up with every second, melting together to a beautiful white landscape. And of course I hope we'll get a lot of snow.

All that excitement usually started around the beginning of December, but this year it started before Halloween. Can't wait for Black Friday either. Standing in the cold for hours, just to get stuff in the store on sale. Actually crazy, but a great experience!

So let the winter come and let all the excitement begin!

Memories

One and a half years ago, everything was different to now. We lived in different countries, trying to live through our days without breaking apart. A voice on the phone and a face on a cold computer screen was the only thing we had from each other, besides the everlasting love that connected us. Waking up in the morning, looking to the right and there she was. I've never seen anyone being so beautiful in her sleep. She was laying there, the blanket up to her chin, being in a dream world while her eyelids were moving. I remember watching her for hours until she woke up. Since we had the time difference of 9 hours, I often stayed up until the morning, so I could spend as much time with her as possible. Days past without turning off our laptops . Days when we saw each other through cam 24/7. We were more than thankful for those days, because being a part from each other just made it worse.

Tuesday March 29th, 2007 was like most of our days. I woke up and waited in front of the computer for her to wake up. Sometimes the hours were longer, sometimes shorter, but when she finally woke up, I took the cutest pictures I've ever seen.

The pictures are a bit blurry, and you might not exactly see what I see, but to me, these two pictures mean the world to me; the way she looks at me like nobody before always puts a smile on my face and every time I see the pictures, it brings back memories. Memories of sadness, Memories of happiness and Memories of being in love with somebody like never before. But mostly it shows me how much she loves me and that we have memories like nobody ever before.



I love you Kelly Lynn, I love you like I've never loved anyone before. I love you so much that even God can't take you away!

I'll be there for you

(Verse 1)
Sometimes I see you all alone
Where will we go it is unknown
It's crazy but it's true
I know that you love me too

(Verse 2)
Sometimes our hearts beat along as one
We share our souls, you know it Hun
I know I want to share my life with you only

Thank you (Thank you), for loving me so much
Thank you for all the dreams we share together

(Chorus)
Do you know that I'll be there for you, forever there for you
There's no other girl I wanna be with
Can you see that I'll be there for you, always there for you
I'll be right here waiting whenever you need me

(Verse 3)
The thought of you keeps driving me crazy
I can go on just singin' this song
I still do believe that you're my destiny

Thank you (Thank you), for loving me so much
Thank you for all the dreams we share together

(Chorus)
Do you know that I'll be there for you, forever there for you
There's no other girl I wanna be with
Can you see that I'll be there for you, always there for you
I'll be right here waiting whenever you need me

(Bridge)
What is love if not with you girl (What is love if not with you girl)
All that i do,is just for you (Just for you)
Baby it's true (Baby it's true)

(Chorus)
I'll be there for you, forever there for you
There's no other girl I wanna be with
Can you see that I'll be there for you, always there for you
I'll be right here waiting whenever you need me

(I love you)

Under The Sun

Me and my wife wrote this poem together. I started off with the first stanza, my wife wrote the next and so on and on...

I feel the sea breeze
Going through my hair
While I'm down on my knees
With you my feelings I share

I sit and stare
Into your beautiful eyes
Nothing but love
To me it wasn't a surprise

I never would have thought
To love someone so much
But what heaven has me brought
Is an angel with sensational touch

An angel I'm not
I do understand your feelings
Whenever we meet at this beautiful spot
Your love always leaves me reeling

The connection between us
Is beyond everything we're wishing for
Each others hearts we possess
Never again alone anymore

I like the sound of forever.
But is this a dream or real?
Will we always be together?
Or will it fade how we feel?

What we feel in our hearts
Can not be denied
Here and now is where it starts
And soon we'll be groom and bride

That is a sweet thought
And if what you say is true
You will be my husband, I your wife
And in God's eyes we'll say I do!

Halloween

It is only one day in October, but like Christmas, it affects the whole month. I do actually get excited about Halloween, excited about carving pumpkins, excited about all the scary and spooky movies running on television and just excited in all, because the first decoration in the year begins.

We've been carving some pumpkins again, really big ones. Oh my was I excited when I went to the car and saw all those big pumpkins in the trunk. Oh my...oh my...oh my. This year we wanted to have some scary and spooky ones, so we surfed the net and found some cool patterns on www.jack-o-lantern.com

After printing the templates the fun began and the end product looked like that!

If Only...

If only you would know
How beautiful you are
How much my love has grown
Since we're no longer far

If only you could see
How much you mean to me
That only you got the key
And in my heart you'll always be

If only you could feel
How much I love you girl
You'd know it's not unreal
For me you are a pearl

If only you could share
The picture I have of you
Your beauty's like a glare
Just everything you do

If only you would know
How beautiful you are
How all your attributes glow
And you'll always be my star

This Is Real - This Is Me

When I look in the mirror
And I see what I see
It could not be clearer
Like the water in the sea

Brown eyes and a dimple
on my left cheek when I laugh
And everything so simple
While following my path

Small lips and a lil' mole
In the middle of my nose
And a love in my soul
That day by day grows

That and so much more
Is just a piece of what I see
When I look in the mirror
This is real - This is me

From Above

We met in the most unconventional way
An everlasting love right from the start
She brights up every brand new day
And knows me heart by heart
I'm thankful for so many things
That happened in my life
Most grateful for a person with wings
My angel, my princess, my wife

Walking With You

What a day, wanna know
What a night, to show
She was innocent , that special touch

What a day, wanna know
What a night
What a day (oh no)
She is all I ever need in love

A day and night can seem so long
When you're loving every minute of
What a day, what a night, (oh no)
Think about her 9 to 5 call her up about a thousand times
I'm gonna be...

Walking with you and talking with you
For a thousand years , across a thousand miles
And laughing with you , and crying with you
With a thousand tears , to have a thousand smiles
Walking with you and talking with you
For a thousand years , across a thousand miles
And laughing with you , and crying with you
With a thousand tears , to have a thousand smiles

When you know , that it's right
And you know, for sure
She's the one who's gonna love you back
It's ok, to rely, on me - depend on me -
I'll be more than what you're looking for

I wanna run and turn to you
Believe in me I'll only speak the truth
Another day, another night (oh no)
Cause you and me we are the same
It's gonna work there's no one else to blame
I'm gonna be ...

Walking with you and talking with you
For a thousand years , across a thousand miles
And laughing with you , and crying with you
With a thousand tears , to have a thousand smiles
Walking with you and talking with you
For a thousand years , across a thousand miles
and laughing with you , and crying with you
with a thousand tears , to have a thousand smiles

All of the troubles I've past
I've done it for you
For this day when we join
And all of the people I've known
They know about you
Like you said
Your my half
And all of the time , that we've spent
Lonely at night
And all of the promises then
The time wasn't right

Walking with you and talking with you
For a thousand years , across a thousand miles
And laughing with you , and crying with you

Walking with you and talking with you
For a thousand years , across a thousand miles
And laughing with you , and crying with you
With a thousand tears , to have a thousand smiles

Whether or not we're meant to be
Time will tell this old story
I'll be walking with you and crying with you
And laughing with you
And dying with you
Forever, forever